Last night I couldn’t keep my eyes open to post about my practice, so I’ll just do it now. It will probably become a habit of mine to post about my practice in the morning as Lily is very good at being up right after my practice. She must feel the vibe.
Well, so yesterday I had a full day of carrying little Ms. Lily around and when I got to my practice around 7 pm, my back felt like I had done the Obelix (never heard of Asterix and Obelix? check it out: http://www.asterix.com/index.html.en) and carried menhirs all day. So I decided to lay down, get into practice and just see what feels good.
Wouldn’t you know, first think I got into was a bridge. It feels just so good to bend your back the other way when you’ve been curling up around a newborn all day. After doing a couple of bridges, I pulled my legs in, rocked on my lower back for a minute to come into happy baby. Funny, eh? After that, I felt like I should stretch my legs to not lose the effects of hormones stretching my ligaments for nine months. So I pulled out a strap, put my right leg up in the air and slowly pulled it towards my head for about ten breaths, coming out of the stretch with the inhale and pulling in a little more on the exhale. I then did the same with my left leg.
A VERY short Savasana followed as my mum’s friend and herself started chatting in the kitchen and instantly my “worrying mother” gene turned on. How could my mum who has a problem listening to two things/voices/sounds at the same time be aware of my poor baby crying through the babyphone while having a conversation?
The question that arose with this is: How can I get deeper into my practice without being distracted by thoughts of Lily needing her mommy? AND will my life stay like this? Will I ever be able to do whatever without worrying about her? The answer is: no. Do I want that? No. Maybe I need to start going outside for practice to be away from the house if I know someone is watching Lily. Maybe I just need to turn on the yoga button.